How is this fair? Can somebody please tell me? Mom, I'm so glad you got what you wanted. You found Ron, you dumped my dad, got pregnant, and starting over. Congratulations. I'm so happy for you. But what happened to me? Am I lost in the dust? Carried away with the wind? I never hear you talk about how you're so proud of me anymore. It's always "Do this, do that, I'm sick I can't get up." I'm more than happy to help you out but what about me? Who's there to help me out? Apparently no one. I'm the only one who does dishes. Who does laundry. Who takes care of the animals, makes sure they have food. I've been packing for the new house, preparing for high school. Worrying about my dad. Thinking about how things have changed and how I literally have less than five friends. Where's my happy ending, Mom? Who's there to help me up when I fall? The Band-Aid company, maybe, but I just used the last one last night so that's a long shot. How can I forget all the times I've been yelled at only to be screamed at again? How can I cope with all this drama? Where's the answer to this? Buried in totes with childhood memories that mean nothing now? I'm happy for the new baby and I don't mind the scarcity of attention like most kids would. But I'm just asking for a little help. I'm overworked, overstressed, and just because you and Ron work does not mean you can just hand over everything to me because I've got my own life and crap to worry about, I don't need more. So I'm happy you got what you wanted, Mom. But when do I get to be happy? My whole world has changed in less than six months. Everything is different and apparently life was never good enough for my mother before she met Ron and started a new family. And now I'm seeing that with me, it'll never be good enough. So, what can we conclude? My life is falling apart? Check. I'm too stressed and frazzled? Check. Everything's going to get better? We'll come back to that one.
Maybe this is how someone thinks or sees me as:
Life Starts Now
Three Days Grace
You say you feel so down
Every time I turn around
And you say you should've been gone by now
And you, you think that everything's wrong
You ask me how to carry on
We'll make it through another day just hold on.
Cause life starts now.
You've done all the things that could kill you somehow
And you're so far down
But you will survive it somehow because life starts now.
I hate to see you fall down
I'll pick you up off of the ground
I've watched the weight of your world come down
And now it's your chance to move on
Change the way you've lived for so long
You find the strength you've had inside all along.
Cause life starts now.
You've done all the things that could kill you somehow and you're so far down
But you will survive it somehow because life starts now.
All this pain
Take this life and make it yours.
All this hate take your heart and let it love again.
You will survive it somehow.
Life starts now.
You've done all the things that could kill you somehow and you're so far down.
Life starts now.
You've done all the things that could kill you somehow and you're so far down.
Life starts now.
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