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Overdue Pictures

2010-08-19T22:58:00.000-05:00

Well, hey everybody. If you're wondering why I haven't posted in a long time it's because I don't really have a great need for the internet anymore. This is the first time I've been on it all week. Crazy, right? I know. But I find other stuff to keep me busy so I don't really need the internet or my phone. Now, if for some reason I couldn't use my iPod, it'd be a different story. Not to mention the loads of homework I get from my Oak Park High School teachers, but, hey, it's all good. I'd rather be producing brain cells than losing them to a computer screen (which I'm doing now). But anyway, I figure I'm a little overdue for pictures so I'll post some in this post and just go from there instead of a whole page of boring dialogue. Sound good? Great(: Oh and I think I'll add a widget to the blog with a photo album of all the cloud photography I've been working on. It's really fun, I think. Hope you enjoy.

The book I'm reading (actually a series)

Algebra II...woo...

The 30gb iPod we found in the new house!(:

The new camera we found in the new house! (it's mine along with the iPod)

And the pretty bracelet I'm making(:

My new house!

Well I guess I'll talk to you all next week!

Lots of Love,

H.L.

>5

2010-08-14T16:37:00.000-05:00

Hey everybody!!! Sooo right now, I'm at my brand new hosue!!(: It's so pretty. It's blue on the outside and my room's the only one painted. It's a BRIGHT green color. I have my own walk-in closet and full bathroom. My unborn sister, Allie, has her own room, complete with Eddie Bauer baby furniture from Aunt Nancy! We just moved in today and hopefully (if Ron and Steven get off their asses) I'll be all moved in by tomorrow. And then...dun dun duuuuuun! School. So I'm kinda excited, only because I have this amazing outfit, complete with the rockin' skinny jeans I got on-sale at Old Navy. But, I'm also nervous because I won't know ANYONE. Not a single soul besides my counselor. But anyway, yeah, me and Dj? We're barely talking. Great, I know. Ummm I'm pretty sure Toni's gonna hate me because my dad is probably gonna tell them all a bunch of lies because we all know how he is, especially since he was being the biggest ass in the world. I feel bad because I couldn't go to Lori's service. At least she'd understand why, unlike everyone else. I mean, it's not my friggin fault that school starts Monday and my dad was gonna get me and my mom home late sunday. By the way, she's, uh, I don't know, PREGNANT!? I was needed at home and I'm sorry but my dad is not the best car-mate in the world. In fact, plain and simple, he's an ASSHOLE. He stresses my mom out so much and like she hasn't already got enough to deal with. So I broke down at Old Navy last night because I know that with Lori gone, basically the one person in that family that understands my mom and actually is OKAY with it, I'll probably never be able to see my two best friends, my soul-sisters, ever again because my dad's always gonna say something, anything to get anyone on his side. I would know. He turned my old neighborhood, besides the people that hated him in the first place, against us when Ron first moved in. So congratulations, Dad. I thought it ended months ago but I was dead wrong because now I have less than five friends.

Nightmares Part One

2010-08-12T14:12:00.000-05:00

Alright, we all know I'm fourteen and, just to be clear I don't wet the bed! No, but I do have horrible nightmares. My nightmares usually end up with me in a pool of my own or somebody else's blood. I know how that sounds. Anyway, I usually, if I go to sleep around ten-ten-thirty, wake up at one forty-five or two with a bad nightmare and end up staying awake. I think the worst one I had was last night. It started off I was walking down a long hallway with rooms at the end (much like the one at my new house). I entered the room at the very end and fell into a garden. I was in a black dress and I was just wondering through the garden. I pricked my finger on a rose and suddenly I saw a horrible sight. A dead body was hanging from a tree and blood was still freshly pouring out of the corpse's mouth. I tried to scream but I was strangled by a steady stream of black butterflies that came out of my throat. I tried to run but I found myself falling to my knees. The only thing I could do was cry silently. It's probably the worst nightmare I've had in a while and I woke up crying so hard my entire pillow was soaked. Anyway, I just thought I'd share.
Bye for now!

Today.

2010-08-11T17:56:00.000-05:00

Today was not a good day, at all. I don't think today will ever be remembered as a good day, by anyone's standards. Today, a very close family friend of mine died. I am hesitant to mention who and how, but I would like prayers to go out to their family. Toni, if you're reading this, I love you. I'll always be with you guys even if I'm two hundred miles away. Because distance doesn't matter. I know things may seem hard right now, but I promise it'll get better. Don't look back on memories except to smile and remember happiness. She is in a better place now, I promise you. I love both you and your sister and if there's anything I can do, let me know because I'll do it in a heartbeat. I had to deliver the news to our other family friends down the street and they didn't take it too easily. Nobody has, believe me. Confession: I was in my room with two candles lit and my iPod blasting, crying for nearly an hour. It's going to be hard but stay strong. Carry on. Love life and always remember in a happy way. I love you.
RIP.
Sincerely,
Hannah.

Bleh.

2010-08-11T10:50:00.000-05:00

Ugh. So it's...10:39am right now. I should not be up. I'm so tired I'm practically sleep-typing this post. But I'm also hungry. Hungry>Tired. That's how it is. My mom's home sick again today, meaning I won't get my schedule for high school until tomorrow, which kind of blows. Sara's asleep in the other room and toast is in the toaster. The stupid lady at my orthodontist was all "Did you brush your teeth this morning?" And of course I said, "No, I just got up," because it was kind of obvious. Then she started picking at my plaque buildup and I just wanted to take that little pick and throw it out the window. She was like, "Did you brush them last night?" And, being me, I just decided to tell her, "Yes," so she'd get off my case. Apparently, that just made her worse. She didn't believe me at all. "Well, it looks like that's been there for longer than overnight." In my head all I could think was dammit. So then I had to go and brush my teeth with a disposable toothbrush which just made it all the more worse. So embarrassing, especially when a hot guy was sitting RIGHT THERE. Ugh I just wanted to die. But anyway, yeah that's pretty much what happened. Fun fun.

Life Starts Now.

2010-08-10T17:10:00.000-05:00

How is this fair? Can somebody please tell me? Mom, I'm so glad you got what you wanted. You found Ron, you dumped my dad, got pregnant, and starting over. Congratulations. I'm so happy for you. But what happened to me? Am I lost in the dust? Carried away with the wind? I never hear you talk about how you're so proud of me anymore. It's always "Do this, do that, I'm sick I can't get up." I'm more than happy to help you out but what about me? Who's there to help me out? Apparently no one. I'm the only one who does dishes. Who does laundry. Who takes care of the animals, makes sure they have food. I've been packing for the new house, preparing for high school. Worrying about my dad. Thinking about how things have changed and how I literally have less than five friends. Where's my happy ending, Mom? Who's there to help me up when I fall? The Band-Aid company, maybe, but I just used the last one last night so that's a long shot. How can I forget all the times I've been yelled at only to be screamed at again? How can I cope with all this drama? Where's the answer to this? Buried in totes with childhood memories that mean nothing now? I'm happy for the new baby and I don't mind the scarcity of attention like most kids would. But I'm just asking for a little help. I'm overworked, overstressed, and just because you and Ron work does not mean you can just hand over everything to me because I've got my own life and crap to worry about, I don't need more. So I'm happy you got what you wanted, Mom. But when do I get to be happy? My whole world has changed in less than six months. Everything is different and apparently life was never good enough for my mother before she met Ron and started a new family. And now I'm seeing that with me, it'll never be good enough. So, what can we conclude? My life is falling apart? Check. I'm too stressed and frazzled? Check. Everything's going to get better? We'll come back to that one.
Maybe this is how someone thinks or sees me as:

Life Starts Now
Three Days Grace

You say you feel so down
Every time I turn around
And you say you should've been gone by now
And you, you think that everything's wrong
You ask me how to carry on
We'll make it through another day just hold on.

Cause life starts now.
You've done all the things that could kill you somehow
And you're so far down
But you will survive it somehow because life starts now.

I hate to see you fall down
I'll pick you up off of the ground
I've watched the weight of your world come down
And now it's your chance to move on
Change the way you've lived for so long
You find the strength you've had inside all along.

Cause life starts now.
You've done all the things that could kill you somehow and you're so far down
But you will survive it somehow because life starts now.

All this pain
Take this life and make it yours.
All this hate take your heart and let it love again.
You will survive it somehow.

Life starts now.
You've done all the things that could kill you somehow and you're so far down.
Life starts now.
You've done all the things that could kill you somehow and you're so far down.
Life starts now.

Maybe Sara's Right.

2010-08-10T14:37:00.000-05:00

So last night at like four in the morning, I was on the phone with Sara explaining all of my troubles/worries/fears blahblahblah. We were talking and I started going off about everything I hated.
"Wait, wait, wait!" she had said. "I figured out your problem!" Of course, she didn't mean it in a bad way, which was good.
"What's that?" I asked, desperate to know what to change.
"You look for the bad in people, not the good."
"Oh. Well what good is there from Samantha? All she's continued to do is make my life a living hell. Is that good?"
"Well she's kinda been there for you," Sara said. "I mean, when you and DJ broke up, she was there, right?"
This had made me realize I was looking for the bad in people, not the good. Which, if you think about it, makes me a weird kind of outcast. That's the great thing about Sara. Even when she points out a flaw, there's always a flawless feeling that follows. So she's right. I need to start looking for the good in people, even if those people piss me off to a point where I don't even want to breathe the same air as them. So, here's to Sara.

Good Things About Bad People:
1.) Samantha- She has been there for me and held me when I've cried and she's diligently listened when I've read my stories and poems and gushed about some guy or a nightmare.
2.) My Dad- He was here for a longer time than Ron and I'll always have some good memories with him even if he never talks to me now.
3.) M- I have known her for...four and a half years now and there'll always be those times on the bus gossiping about A or something.
4.) That one guy that whistled at me as I was jogging- At least he has good taste
5.) Tiffanie- Well, she doesn't completely hate me and still calls me sugar or gives me a hug, I guess.

Ohmy.

2010-08-10T02:42:00.000-05:00

Wow, look at what's happened! First off, I would like to say how I can't keep up writing a diary, much less an electronic sort of one. Well, with that said, where do I start? Umm...my mom's pregnant. That's right. Due December 4th. I start high school in five days. But, here's the catch...I'm going to Oak Park. Not Northtown, not IB...Oak Park. Which, seeing the facility and meeting with the counselor today, isn't really that bad of a school. Pretty nice really. What else, what else... I'm moving. It's a way prettier house. That's why I decided to go to Oak Park. If I chose to stay in the IB program at Northtown, I still could. But who wants to be there with...egos and egos and egos upon even more egos!? I've grown up with all those people. I'm so sick and tired of them. So, given a chance to get away from them, damn straight I'm going to take it. Well, anyway, the new house. There's nothing bad I can say about it. It's nice and I have my own walk-in closet and full bathroom. The basement's finished and there's lots of space for my new little sister, Allyson. Except, I have to give up my cats. My two precious cats that I've raised. And since my dad is still continuing to be an asshole about everything, I have to give them to a no-kill shelter. I've cried and cried and cried and cried over it for the past three or four weeks. We have to look for a home for Jack, too. The only thing I get out of it is...a fish. A lousy, water-breathing fish. How lovely. Hmm...still there's more. Sara, my best friend in the entire universe, is moving, too. But The irony is, after all these years being best friends and living with the reality we have to go to different high schools, she's moving right down the street from my old house. Wow. And she's going to Northtown now. Weird, right? Her mom's pregnant too. Who knows, maybe our half-siblings will be best friends one day. Speaking of siblings, (well, the born ones anyway) I would kill not to have a single step-sibling. That's right, I said it. I have two which I'm sure I mentioned somewhere. Abbigayle (Abbie), who's three and a half, and Samantha who's four months younger than me. Oh. My. God. With Samantha there is so much fucking drama I could just kill myself. Sometimes, I think that would be way less stressful. Everything has to be Samantha's way or it's not happening. She just pisses me off so damn much! We tried our best to give her a good birthday and she still wasn't happy at the end of the day. I seriously wish she would NEVER EVER EVER come back. It's just so ridiculous, the stuff that she fights about. As if I don't already have enough stress. I'm sure if I would just let everything go maybe things would get better but..hot damn I could use a way out right now. Oh, not to mention the fact that I'm going to be the only Williams. Allie's not going to know me very much. I'll be the only one with dark hair, brown eyes. And it sucks. I hate it. I hate being the outcast of the family. My mom keeps trying to explain that it's no big deal, but it IS! I've always been weary of being left out of family things but with my parents split, I'm on my own, literally. My dad never talks to me except an informal thing with his girlfriend Christi every once in a blue moon. My mom and Ron are obsessed with the other siblings of the house (and just because Samantha and Abbie aren't here all the time doesn't mean they aren't the center of attention) and especially with the baby on the way. I know it's childish of me and very petty and vain and whatever else you're thinking of but believe me I'll trade my life for yours any day. Well, I have to go to bed. I have to finish cleaning and packing my room tomorrow and I may walk down to Sara's to help her unpack and move in as well.
Bye for now,
H.L.

Raggety Hannah

2010-05-10T15:48:00.000-05:00

Soooo.... Um, well I know its been like forever since I've posted but things have been super busy. Did I mention the divorce? Surely I did and how my father is being an ass about this and my mother goes along with it to marry Ron and get this over with. Does anyone care about my emotions? Or am I just a rag doll like my father said? I don't know. But me and Samantha are best friends. I dated a guy she liked and I'm winning him over yet again because I totally screwed things up. Anyways, besides my dad, things couldn't really be better. Well, they could, but until that time comes, they can't be. I'm writing a narrative for C.A., I took the Geometry EOCE today, which D.J. said was a piece of cake...until I saw it. I was really nervous. I mean, c'mon, this year might go to waste if I fail that thing and I will not take anything over again. If that's what they think they've got another thing coming for them. Sare's best friend is a total...female dog. She's so mean to me. I mean, it's like everything I do is stupid to her and I don't know what else to do other than ignore her. Which is becoming increasingly hard. I had my birthday about three weeks ago. I'm officially fourteen years old. I don't know if I want to go to the eighth grade dance this Friday. I don't think I'm going. I'm dead sure I'm not going. Unless someone asks me but, as much as I hate to admit, my only hope now is Lucian and there's no way in fucking hell I'm going with that creep. |: Sigh. All the losers go for me. Except, of course, Mr. Kearney(; If you know who I'm talking about, yeah I've got him. Tim can go suck it.Anyway, I made this amazing poster for Sam's concert tomorrow night. Which I'm going to embarrass her SO bad with. I'm so excited. Then I'm going to get a picture of her face and post it on facebook. This is total payback for all the things she's done to me. (Lick me, push me in water, chase me around the house, drama, etc.) Anyways, yeah. And I get to see D.J. tomorrow night so, uh, yeah I'm excited! Anyways, I think that's it in a nutshell. Any questions I guess you could email me xD!!! Hahhh. Hasta La Vista for now(:

-H.L.Williams

Well...

2010-03-26T21:03:00.000-06:00

First of all, yes, I know it's been lik two months since I've posted. But, a lot of stuff has happend. Starting with my parents are getting divorced. My mom found an old highschool classmate named Ron Rogers. He's cool. He's my new stepdad. I have a four-year-old step sister named Abigayle and a thirteen year old step sister named Samantha. She stayed last week (spring break) with me. She did my eyebrows (picture at the end) and guys like me now. It's a pretty drastic adjustment for me. I'm used to being the girl that just blends in and doesn't stand out. Now, all of a sudden, cute guy like me. But the one guy I like, Chris, doesn't like me. He's cute and he goes to Newmark which basically classifies him as rich. I'm stuck in the middle between him and the cute sixteen year old that likes me back. Um...my dad has an apartment, I have a pretty cool room there. I'm here right now, actually. I listen to new bands--Breaking Benjamin, All-Time-Low, Evanescence, Avril Lavigne, Lifehouse, JTX. My favorite is still, of course, Muse. My favorite color is still falu red. I went to see Alice in Wonderland. I love the new Cheshire Cat. But, and I know this seems random, but it really does make sense in my mind, I still don't know if I want to date. It seems impossible at the moment. Yet, I still...I really like Chris, let's just put it that way. My depressed friend, Jake, likes me and last week he almost tried to commit suicide and I had to talk him out of it. It's hard to tell him I don't like him because I'm afraid he'll...he'll...well. Still. I'm caught. I don't know if I ever wanted this. Maybe I did. I don't know. Everything with my parents. It's hard to really tell anyone how I feel anymore. It's hard to just tell them. My dad's still an angry person, though he swears up and down he's not. My mom is...happy, at least. I live with them, technically. I just come here every other weekend and Tuesdays and Thursdays. I'm afraid that I'm changing. I've always been the constant. I still keep up my grades and work for my future, but I'm changing as a person. I'm more rebellious. Apparently, I'm more...catching to the eye. Though I know I'm not. I'm...I'm not going with the crowd anymore. I don't like trying to be like Maggie. I'm friends with Ian, Tara, Cierra, Morgan. I've never been that popular, but I'm still not...popular, if that makes sense. They're just more...lenient with me than the other robots. That's another thing. People at Chris's school are popular, rich, pretty robots. With the exception of Michael who's pretty cool but just not Newmark-molded. Chris...I'm not sure. If there was a pause button, I'd press it and evaluate everything. Rewind maybe. Fast-forward. Would I press the stop button though? The eject? No. I don't think I could do that. Lol, I'm more of a chicken-shit than anything anyways. I'd press the play button and get on with my life. I know I'm not anyone special. Whatever happens, happens. I suppose. Well, my retarded dad is yelling at me to get in the shower because he's...well, retarded. Here's the link for my story and my picture below:
http://www.inkpop.com/projects/31210/death-in-the-mills/read-project/#chapter

Before!

after!

Sam literally had to sit on top of me to pluck those suckas(: Anyways, cheers for now(:
xoxoxoxox,

Revolutionary Hero.

2010-02-08T17:52:00.000-06:00

Maybe I'm overreacting, maybe I'm not. But my best friend might die from medicine to keep him out of pain?! Yeah, I'm totally overreacting. I hate valentine's day, William Dawes can burn in hell with it. Oh, speaking of the Revolution, I just finished my project I've been working on for two and a half weeks. And it's pretty kick-ass if you ask me. We didn't have honors tonight): Snowed out. Oh, but I wouldn't have gone anyway. My best friend wasn't going to be there and I didn't feel like arguing with Michael about who's the biggest dumb-ass. Besides, I'm so tired I could sleep on a bed of nails. I've just been kind of mopey-dopey allday. SPEAKING of day, I had this horrible dream last night--I'm still freaked out about it. Well, this is going to sound childish, but it was about Big Foot. But goddamnit, I'm still scared. I'd sleep with my shotgun if I could. It's too long to type and I'm too glad to have my after-school sleepy time back anyways. So I'm gonna go. See yah!!
xoxoxo (HATE valentines,

Super tired...great weekend(:

2010-01-31T22:47:00.000-06:00

I spent the wholeweekend with Beebs, my wifey, and we rode bikes in Kmart, painted our nails at Kohl's, bought matching slippers with my mom at JCP's and watched movies(: It was a great weekend!! And, Sara, my best friend, and I are otay(: She's comin over tomorrow after Honor's and it's great(: I got an outfit at the thrift store down the street and it looks good(: I also broke my laptop, but my momma's gonna fix it so its all good. For now, I think I can fare pretty well on my momm's. :) Here's a pic, night all, I'm really tired!

:D

2010-01-29T20:06:00.001-06:00

Hanging with beebs--post more tomorrow!!!

Revolutionary War against my sinuses!

2010-01-26T15:41:00.000-06:00

Hey tharr errrybody! Hah! Well, today was very interesting. It all started this morning when I walked out of the house weearing pajamas...HA just kidding. This morning I woke up very stuffy and extremely tired and, trust me, I wanted to stay home and my mom said I could, but I remembered we had 1) a geometry vocabulary test, 2) a benchmark in science, and 3) a benchmark in CA. What I didn't know was 1) I would make very gross bambinos in TLC, 2) discover that Navjo Ceremonial Dance stays in your head all freaking day, 3) I would be working on a major project for SAGE by myself (my choice, but dang it's hard), and 4) the term "FML" really does explain my day. The project in SAGE is over the Revolutionary War. See, the rest of the class is working in two groups of five students, and when I realized there were eleven students, plus the fact I would have to endure a week working with pointless idiots from the crackerbox, I decided to take on this mountain alone. I have to investigate the 5w's and h about like 25 leading up to and during the Revolutionary War, come to a conclusion on what caused the Revolutionary War, build evidence (like a tea crate made of wooden sticks), make a visual aid, and write an essay. In a week.
FML!
Oh and I'm starting to break out along my forehead. And I don't even have acne!

OMG

2010-01-24T21:39:00.000-06:00

Well, things are pretty good. I'm still...upset...about...well, we'll save that story for another time. Anyway, it's official. I'm gonna fail honors [orchestra] because I get absolutely NOTHING! ): Goodbye perfect 1st chair. And Beebs, if you're reading this, I love you, but honestly I SUCK FIGS! I'm gonna fail.

I'm okay. I think.

2010-01-24T13:07:00.000-06:00

Yesterday I came home from my twin's house at about 12. I had only eaten one thing all day-half of a long john donut. After that, at about five, my mom offered me some ravioli. I said she could make it even though my stomach lurched at the idea of food. I didn't eat it. My dad made some mashed potatoes with yummy homemade gravy. I barely ate it. I have a new best friend too. And it's weird because he's going out with my other best friend who is also my wifey. Lol. Um, at about 1 last night I got up and made myself a ham and cheese sandwich but I couldn't taste it. All of the vibrant colors in my room seem dull and food has no taste. I'll eat it now, but I can't taste anything unless it's a horrid taste. I brushed my teeth and couldn't (can't) taste the flouride and mint. But oh well. Other than that, I feel fine. I tried to sit down and watch Sense & Sensibility, but I was too impatient for that. Two hours of my life? Hah, dream on. Oh and for those of you who know the story of what happened Friday night, and how I helped, I don't need a guy. I'm fine. Seriously. Just trouble in that. I'm a solo bird and I don't need anyone to tell me otherwise. Thank you very much though for caring-I appreciate it. And, no, that was not sarcasm. Although I should've just let you guess for yourself. Anyway, I guess I'll go now. Not like I have anything better to do, but still.

Home sweet...WHERE IS MY COUCH!?

2010-01-18T16:17:00.000-06:00

So I had a great two days. For those of you that know him, I've been dreaming about a guy lately. I know him in real life, but when I dream about him, he's very very very cute. I mean, in real life he's totallly nice but there has to be that physical attraction. And it's not there. I haven't seen him since September and this Wednesday I see him at Honors [Orchestra]. But he's totally cute in my dreams. And I've been having the same exact dream for a week straight. Does it mean something? God I hope not. So, anyway, I got home today and THE COUCH WAS GONE. Well, the green one anyway. The rest of the furniture is leather so I liked that couch. And they got rid of it... I was like seriously? So anyway yesterday I chase down my grandparent's dog for like two hours and I got all muddy and cold and wet. And then this morning I shocked myself. So now my fingers are burnt. Funnnn.

JOKES :D

2010-01-14T23:42:00.000-06:00

Okay, so what did sushi one say to sushi two?

WASABI!

A suicide bomber storms a pet shop. He declares, "Everyone has thirty seconds to get out before I blow the place up!"
the tortoise at the back of the shop "You bastard..." <-----thats my fav

what do you call cheese that isn't yours?
nacho cheese(:

two atoms walk into a bar. the frist one says "i think i just lost an electron" the second one says "are you sure?" the first one says "im positive!"(:

those are just a few, ill be back with more, but i need to get my stuff ready for tomorrow and go to bed :/ ehhh, night!(: btw's I totally aced my geometry test! :D

Haiti, Temples of Petra, and Kitchen Technology!

2010-01-13T16:16:00.001-06:00

I really want to send some money towards helping the victims of yesterday's deadly earthquake in Haiti. It breaks my heart): I had a good study session with Branislav yesterday but...lol...my dad thinks hes gay...! Hahhaha! So it turns out I already took my SAGE test and got a 49/50 on it last quarter. I felt so stupid when I brought in a whole notebook full of notes, only to realize that we already took the essay test. Jeez, I really felt like a gifted student then! I had my IB enrollment Monday night and I fille dout the form and next year I'm taking chamber orchestra and Pre-IB/ Challenge Art(: And all of my other classes, including Algebra II. Fun, right? But ey, I'm not complaining. I'm taking my geometry test tomorrow and I'm pretty sure I'm ready for it. I got assigned my TLC (Technology for Life Communications) partner...Raven Rooks. He's like tall, kind of handsome but not really dashing. I'd never like him. Ever. He has less brain cells than a rat because he probably smokes. And it sucks because he does nothing but sit there and say "Dude, that's totally Gee. Naw, man, just kiddin'" (and he's white and thinks he's a gangster, but, like Anthony Ramos, he's probably in a gang and has probably committed murder somewhere along the line). It's like, could you please speak in Englais? No comprehende? I got Kitchen Technology. At least we get to make brownies, right? Me, mostly. But still. In SAGE I was so bored (because we were doing this stupid discussion about what "gifted" really means and this self-evaluation thing) that I wrote down the months in a year, the numbers from 0-9, days of the week, colors of the rainbow, and the countries of the world. I've memorized 178 so far because I have a song that I sing that helps me remember... United States, Canada, Mexico, Panama, Haiti, Jamaica, Peru, Republic Dominican, Cuba, Carribbean, Greenland, El Salvador, too! Puerto Rico, Columbia, Venezuela, Honduras, Guiana, and still, Guatemala, Bolivia, then Argentina, Ecuador, Chile, Brazil!....I could go on, but I'd rather keep my valuable cheat to myself. Today in Geometry, I actually worked. And yesterday, I did a grande totale of 89 problems in my geometry book. If I fail this test, I'm going to hand in my vauluable work instead :/ My braces are okay now. Like, I'm used to them and everything, but it still kind of hurts to eat. Also in Geometry, Mr. Bradley put up a new "Where In The World" which I have gotten the past two times. Turns out, today's was a temple in a cliff in Petra, Jordan. Well, Caleb, who used to be the Wiz Kid in elementary and then "handed the torch to me" so to speak, looked it up in class! I got so irritated! Because the past few times I've actually known, just by my own absorption of knowledge, where the places are. He totally cheated! He could have at least waited until he got home! But, whatever. I also took like a whole (and I mean WHOLE like there is no white spot on that paper) page of notes for my Science Olympiad event, Solar Systems. I was proud of that(: And, for my novel, I checked out an Italian Traveler's Guide from the library. I thought it was pretty neat(: Well, I think I'm going to go write, so bye!!

Cheers,

2010-01-12T21:12:00.001-06:00

Pray for the Haitians in this time.

2010-01-11T07:31:00.001-06:00

On my way to hell |:

laughs Alright, so I just read...

2010-01-10T15:04:00.000-06:00

You know, and I'm probably gonna go back on this in like a week, I just went back and read everything I had ever posted and...I don't care. It's like...Eh, who gives a flying cow anymore? >.< Hahahah! Braces hurt like no other, devil's spawn, but I'm sitting here on my couch watching the Science Channel eating homemade egg drop soup, listening to my new Paramore cd, making up a schedule for the nights I have Honor's Orchestra, and studying my geometry and SAGE. I promise, to myself and everyone else, this year's gonna be better. DEFINITELY(;

Carry on[;

BRACES :D

2010-01-09T11:18:00.000-06:00

2010-01-09T07:15:00.001-06:00

Going to get my new smile...and them to target for a new cd

Insomniac Chronicles...Part Three

2010-01-09T05:56:00.000-06:00

Heyo everyone. It's me. Hannah.
So, tonight I don't have any pictures. I'm effing tired. That's right. The first Insomniac that's actually tired. I'm getting my braces at 8am. It's 5:53am. I'm going to call Isaac today because I think it's going to be totally awkward Monday... So I'm going to eliminate that right now. Anyway, I'm going to look horrible with braces. If I can't get a guy as it is....what the hell are little metal things gonna do? And my hair! Don't even get me started. I'm going to scream, absolutely scream, if anyone says anything about it.
To be frank, I'm scared.

-Hannah

Oh my god.

2010-01-08T14:51:00.000-06:00

Well I'm at Sara's and there was this facebook group that was like "Soldiers are NOT Heroes" and so then there was this other group that was like "Petition to remove the group 'Soldiers are NOT Heroes'" and I joined it and then I told Sara and she was like "Why did you join that?" and I was like "Uh...because you don't see me or you over their working our asses off to protect America?" and she was like "They went over there to get oil." and I was like "No, they went over there to stop terrorism!" and it was really pissing me off because I have a cousin who's in the army! It's like why the hell would you even say that!?

2010-01-07T22:24:00.001-06:00

Drinking a banana smoothy and playing spongebob monopoly.

:D

2010-01-07T19:06:00.000-06:00

Ummm well I'm at Sara's....and my tooth hurts like a mother...ugh.... Ummmmm here's some cool stuff I found on the internet for your enjoyment :D

Holy ef.

2010-01-07T14:36:00.004-06:00

Okay well I woke up at two, and I didn't know I had a dentist appointment at three until I aske dmy dad why he was home!?!! So Madeleine was already ready and I called my mom and was like "WTF!?" and she was like "I told you Monday, Hannah!" in her really snooty mom voice. So I just got yelled at and you know, she could have reminded me, um I don't know, YESTERDAY!!!!???? Ugh anyway, I made a tribute to Spirited Away last night and I'll post the link later on. Honestly, I don't wanna go to the dentist-my teeth are so screwed!

2010-01-07T14:36:00.001-06:00

Madeleine Did my hair!

2010-01-06T21:44:00.002-06:00

Call in sick!

2010-01-06T20:48:00.000-06:00

OHMIGOD!
Idk. Well,
This thing did happen. It's called a blizzard and the gay dip's at my mommy's work are gonna make her get out in it.
"Call in sick," I said.
"Can't."
"Yes you can, where's your phone?"
"No, I mean they know."
"Oh. Well, I'll cough into the phone for you."
"They'll know."
"Tell them to screw off, that's what I'd do."
"Hannah, you'd do that because you wouldn't value your job too highly if you weren't looking through a telescope."
"Pfhhh, well."
XD! Lmao....yeah!
And Madeleine's gonna be here in ten minutes :D
See all you buggers LATA!

Uh oh...(:

2010-01-06T17:34:00.000-06:00

Oh.
Did I sleep till three thirty again?
Uh oh. I'm never going to get to sleep for school...
OH WAIT THERE IS NO SCHOOL THIS WEEK!
Ahahahahha! I love Blizzards(:
So I was watching Family Guy last night and...well(:

Bahahahahhaha!!! Wellllllll I'mma go now. I'll be back later ;}

Fiftieth Post(:

2010-01-06T04:30:00.000-06:00

Oh !@#$.
Did I really just stay up till four again doing pointless stuff on the internet for no apprent reason?
Yeah. Oh well.
Actually, my mom told me to stay up late I was like o.o? wtf? And she explained because she felt bad for leaving me home alone tomorrow (snow day) that she wanted me to just sleep the whole day like normal. I was like "w...t....f? LMAO!" XD Anyway, I'm going to bed-ran out of water in my eco-container and I'm too lazy to get up and get more. Goodnight, bloggers!
Oh, btw, this is my FIFTIETH post(:
This blog's getting pretty old!(x Lol!
P.S.-I'm married to Toni(: lmao....

:D World Thermostat

2010-01-05T19:14:00.000-06:00

Muahahahha! My evil plan to change the world's thermostat is effective! Muahahah! NO SCHOOL!(: Again. Yes!

I'm writing. And I'm getting up tomorrow-for sure!

Tweet tweet....

2010-01-05T16:07:00.000-06:00

Tweet tweet(:
TWEET!

Uh-Oh

2010-01-05T14:14:00.002-06:00

Well...I think we're gonna have school tomorrow...and I just woke up...guess what time it is? 2:15 in the afternoon...shit...

Click it!

2010-01-05T01:19:00.000-06:00

Click HERE and prepare for awesomeness(:

Freaking Chicka Yeah(:

2010-01-04T18:03:00.000-06:00

Um okay so I just ran out into the living room screaming "THERE'S NO SCHOOL TOMORROW! FREAKING CHICKA-YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" (thank you Stephanie, for adding that to my vocabulary:) Dangit I'm so happy I could ride a rainbow-pooping pink pony with blonde hair and not get the urge to sell it for money and respect! Oh dang(:

2010-01-04T11:30:00.001-06:00

blahhblahhblahh I hate you!!

Hair cut and YOGA(:

2010-01-04T08:59:00.000-06:00

Okay, so I got my hair cut. Wanna see?

Um, I also got my bangs rzor-slashed right above my eyes. So it looks good when the rest of my hair is curly. And I can't get this stupid text off center so now it looks gay :/ ANYWAY

goddangit.

Umm well I'm not too happy bout this but...Shannon [gay] Mckinney is comign back to Eastgate. Asked her mself and she kept asking who it was and I told her it was non of her concern(: But I was NOT too happy about that. I almost started crying.

I do yoga now. In fact, I got up this morning at seven, ate an apple and drank a glass of orange juice, and did my morning yoga session. Eventually, I'll go outside and do it when it gets warmer outside. Sara's gonna be here in like ten minutes and she went to bed at three last night...I actually found the will, somewhere inside of me, to go to bed at twelve. So I got a good night's sleep(:

Ummmmmmmmm. My dog snores. He's right here snoring.

AHH OMG!

Wanna see a really funny video of me and Steph totally just winging it in front of a camera? Yes? Well then look no further! Go here:

Lol have fun with that ;]

Welllllll I think Imma go now...but I'm writing a new story. I think it's great, if I do say so myself. :D here RIGHT HEERE(:

Alright, seeeee yaaahhhh later alligators :D

Random Videos with Steph and Hannah- Random Whale

2010-01-03T02:16:00.000-06:00

2010-01-02T12:42:00.001-06:00

Getting a hair cut....

Stories, Anxiety, and Freaks at Target

2010-01-01T20:59:00.000-06:00

Okay, so I updated my myspace for the first time in like two months. Yeah, I haven't been on since then. I wasn't originally planning ot get on, but I did. Only because I wrote this awesome "About Me" originally for my Inkpop profile and I was pretty proud of it and since facebook doesn't have decent space for it...I wanted to post it somewhere where my friends can see it. I also finished a short story last night at like four a.m. Here it is for your wonderful enjoyment:Revelations at the End of the World. Have fun. Anyway, I think I have anxiety issues? I dunno, just something I was thinking about. I mean, I care way too much about what people think. Okay, so I went to Target today, like my second home, and this lady that was walking past me called me a freak. I almost told her to screw off and flip her the bird, but I didn't. I was dressed in black from head to toe-my black trench coat, my atheletic pants, and my black snow boots. And my sunglasses because it was two in the afternoon and I was not awake. I had just woken up, as a matter of fact, because I had been spending a cyber New Year's with Jonni on the webcam till four in the morning. So anyway, I was totally pissed off. But I got one of those nylon undershirts from Champion that was black. Something to match my snowboots. And I'm going to Stephanie's tomorrow...and I was pretty mad, but I'll save that for later. Anyway, here's the About Me I posted today. I think it's kick ass.

Well, I'm Hannah, hi to all. I guess I've recently had like a new take on life. I'm a total perfectonist in everyway humanly possible. I do have a mild form of anxiety and I care too much about what people think, always asking if they're mad at me and that usually ends up making it worse. I've taken to wearing black, yeah I just wear it cause it looks good on me. I wear fake glasses and I wear the same pair of old, worn-out black snow boots even when it's warm outside. I was at Target today and a woman called me a freak. I almost told her to screw off. That's just me. I don't wear black all of the time-in fact, most of my wardrobe is a girly pink. Or green. Or white. Or whatever. I draw and I listen to extensive amounts of Muse, Radiohead, and Placebo. But, going along with the more fun-loving side of me, I also listen to Taylor Swift, Ingrid Michaelson, and the old Kelly Clarkson. My iPod is my life and I would personally kill whoever broke it or took it. I write short stories (lately) and I try to write novels-but fail horribly because of whatever reason. I hate chores, I love summer, I hate snow, I love winter. I used to be a ballerina/dancer/cheerleader, but it was not working out. I'm the kind of fat everyone says I'm skinny but I know I'm not. I'm not pretty, just frizzy hair bunched on pale skin with hazel eyes. I watch too much History, Science, National Geographic, and Discovery Channel. I make straight A's in Geometry and SAGE. I passed Algebra 1 last year in seventh grade so for all you high schoolers who think it's tough, I just totally kicked your ass. Umm...I have a cat who think's she's a dog and another cat who think's she a snake. Yes, a snake. She walks like a slither and bites like no other. I read tons of books and I've read 1984 by George Orwell three times, Song of the Sparrow by Lisa Sandell sixteen times, and as for Twilight...don't even get me started. It's stupid. I'm going to stop there because it'll get pretty ugly. I do yoga outside in the morning when everyone is just waking up and there's still dew on the grassblades while listening to Debussy, Chopin, and a subtle form of Joe Hisaishi opera. I do shop at Hollister, but very rarely. My home shop is Target-the manager knows my mom and I by name because we're in there so much. According to some people, I complain a lot. Next year starting high school, I'm doing away with people. No more friends-they're overrated and can be seriously rude and mean. So that's my lame life. If you want to hear more random stuff than you can probably stand, click on the second link below.

And don't bug me about this about me because it's my life and if you don't like it then screw off. ;p

Carry on
-Hannah

I like it. Anyway, I have two tests a day after I get back from break. The geometry one is over chapter six and has something to do with rectangles and diagonals and that's all I know. The Sage one, well I just know it's going to be in essay form for the test and that it's comparing and contrasting something to do with the colonial regions? Yeah this can't end well.

Twenty-Ten (and for those idiots, 2010)

2009-12-31T20:26:00.000-06:00

Okay, so I hate the holidays. I think the only reason I celebrate it is because of the presents and good food. But...now...okay, so I'm glad all of that damned Christmas music is over but now, all over my stupid facebook homepage, all of these idiots are like "Oh Em Gee! Twenty-ten's gonna be the best and I'm gonna be a better person!" or "I'm so gonna lose weight and be friends with the people I lost in 2009" and blahblahblah. Ten bucks last year everyone said those same words...and look where we are now. I'll bet that someone said "I'm going to be a better person" and I'll bet that someone was planning on doing it too. And look where they are now, probably sitting in some stupid prison with a bunch of tattooed inmates all saying, "Man, imma be a better person". And then there's the fat ass sitting at home on his computer saying, "I'm gonna lose that two hundred pounds this year." Same thing he said last year. So, I guess the whole point of this is, for one, I don't support that New Year's resolution, "I'm gonna change" crap. Because within a month, I'll forget it. Basically, New Year's brings out the stupidity in mankind.
See all you buggers next year

OH NO

2009-12-31T14:59:00.000-06:00

Ummmm...well, I'm home for New Years!(: My gramma woke me up at one int eh afternoon...too early. So then I was in a bad mood all afternoon because we had to meet my dad at two so I could go home. Bleh. I think I'm hanging out with Stephi Saturday and then...oh dear lord...back to school :( Break went by too fast! It's not fair! It's not right!
And I have two tests...and I only remember the gist of what I'm supposed to ace!!!!!!! AH! OH NO!

Blahbleh

2009-12-27T14:42:00.000-06:00

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I'm not really in the blogging mood right now :/ But I figured I should mention what I got for Christmas.
1) The Universe Tshirt(:!!!
2) The Universe Mousepad!!!!
3) FM shower radio with a transmitter for my ipod(:
4) Hello Kitty Mini Water dispenser--haha yeah my mom and I bought this at the store and she said she was gonna wrap it up and give it to me Christmas morning--and she actually did! LOL!
5) Some trinkets that my late grandma left to my mom and me.
6) Bendaroos (actually my mom wanted those, lol)
7) Pop Cap.
8) Writing pad
9) Silicone keyboard that plugs into my computer(:
10) Clothes from Hollister and Delia's
11) New phone
12) Home Depot 50$ giftcard to repaint my room. muahahhaha

Tada.
Toodles.

Christmas with the Williams

2009-12-24T00:31:00.000-06:00

Christmas for me right now... It's a chance to forget about everything that's happened. I thank my lucky stars and my God for everything I have. I worship Jesus on the 25th of December and I say happy birthday to my Dad on the 27th. The 31st I set my goals for the upcoming year. I can't wait. Oh who am I kididng I just want to open my presents!

Have a Merry Christmas everyone! Or Kwanzaa or Hanukkah or whatever! Happy Chinese New Year!!

A to Cheer (with Hannah and Sara)

2009-12-23T00:03:00.000-06:00

Heyho everyone! A video to cheer(:

Parents These Days
(unfortunately, can't live with 'em and the law won't let you live without 'em)

CADOO!

2009-12-22T19:38:00.000-06:00

Me and my friend playing cadoo....Fun....

2009-12-20T17:24:00.001-06:00

At Gramma's and Grandpa's until Tuesday night and then Orthodontist Wednesday morning at 8 am.....fun! I get my braces January 9th

Some Videos to Cheer(:

2009-12-20T02:35:00.001-06:00

Well I'm totally addicted to youtube now...so here are some HILARIOUS videos I found while surfing(:
Cheers, enjoy(:

David After Drugs:

Greatest freak out ever 2 (ORIGINAL VIDEO): **I fell out of my chair when I watched this. I was laughing so hard!

Greatest freak out ever (ORIGINAL VIDEO): **Steph showed this to me and I almost peed my pants!**

Ball Jump Fail:

The WTF Blanket (Snuggie Parody):

**This one is extremely gross, I must warn! It made me nearly puke**
Guiness World Record's Biggest Zit Ever!?:

Blank Book:

WAIT! I thought of something to lift me up...

2009-12-19T23:59:00.000-06:00

I Dream of Dreaming

By Hannah Lorraine Williams

I dream of dreaming. Of sleeping on a bed of the most intricate, ornate designs. I want to lie down and sleep a peacefully, worriless sleep for eternity. Eternity's nothing except forever. Dreaming of sunsets and flowers; fields and magical cottages. My eyes don't flutter. I dream. I play my favorite tune on my viola, "We Three Kings". I feel the grass brush past me as I set my instrument of music down on a white rock. I sink to the ground, crisscross, my head in my hands that are resting on my knees. A small fawn comes to me and nuzzles my shoulder. I rub her nose and kiss her gently. She prances away and I stand up, preparing to go home. My dress is seventeenth century and I'm running through the fields without a care in the world; my dark brown hair swinging in all directions with my dress. The sky is my kind of blue, the birds chirp my favorite classical song-In The Hall Of The Mountain King. I can see my cottage up ahead; the thatched roof with a chimney that spews the most beautifully colored dark grey smoke. I pick a flower on my way. My favorite kind-a white daisy. There's a small stream nearby, gliding over white rocks and making the most heartbreakingly beautiful sound. I braid a few daisies into my hair and splash my face with the purest kind of water from the stream. I laugh and think of how wonderful it feels on my ivory colored skin with my rosy cheeks. I look at my reflection- my dark brown eyes seem big and beautiful, my skin colored like a peach-colored cloud and my dark brown hair falling in ringlets around my smiling face. I turn to go home, walking and continuing to finish "In the Hall of The Mountain Kings" because the birds had gone home to feed their families; to their dreams. They just volunteered in mine for the day. Tomorrow there'll be new birds with a new song for me to listen to. The golden sun sets quietly over the emerald hills, painting a watercolor of reds, magentas, pinks, purples, yellows, and oranges. The yellows fade to orange. The Oranges fade to red. And the reds fade to a deep purple that eventually set into midnight blue and black. Soon, the stars come out along with the moon. A full moon because I had always loved them when I was awake and not sleeping. I thought that it had always held a symbolic measure of power and love, infinite beauty for the night. Together, the stars and the moon provide a parade of colorless points of light that beckon me to them. I will gladly go when it is my time in infinity. I skip happily back to my path, bending down to pet a beautifully colored red fox on my way-my favorite animal. He follows me back to my cottage and I give him a nice bed in my drawer and kiss him goodnight as I, too, end my wondrous day in my dreams, beginning to dream up even more vibrant dreams. In my dreaming, I smile peacefully as the night sets in.

In my dreams, there are no worries. Nothing to hurt anything. Everything is perfect and for me, my life right now, that's way it should be. I never wake up. My eyes never twitch, my heart never flutters. I am in my own perfect world where I am safe. No tears, no people. Just me and my wants. No money, no hate. Just love and nature. No modern music, but classical to soothe the soul, mind, and heart. No ugly, just beauty and wonder. Discovery veils nearly everything I touch. There is no gold. There are no phones, computers, TV's, or anything modern. Everything is pure. Everything is beautiful. Everything is perfect.

I dream of dreaming of my dreams peacefully in my serene thoughts.

*This made me feel a lot better. I have this to look forward to in my life. Closing my eyes and resting peacefully for eternity*

My life was good...thirty minutes ago.

2009-12-19T22:59:00.000-06:00

Well my Christmas Break happiness is very short lived, I must say. It all started with a text from one of my good friends, let's call her M. Well, M said that I told a guy that lives in Kearney, let's call him A, that I called her a slut. Which, GUESS WHAT!? I didn't! And she doesn't believe me because A said that I said "We're really good friends but she's a slut". Which I would have no reason to say because M is pretty, atheletic, and dresses appropriately. A also told her that I said "she messes around with high school guys". WHICH I DIDN'T! So....what the hell!? No one believes me and now my best friend, who's also best friends with M, is going to hate me now. But what really sets me off is...A has nothing against me. I had talked to him a few weeks into school. Everything was good. He asked about M and I said "She's good. We're really good friends. She has gotten a few boyfriends and I havent' and she's really pretty and atheletic". So where did slut come into all of this!? Maybe it's because A and M used to date in like fifth grade before A moved north and he told me he had never really liked M. So I'm caught in the middle of this. I don't know what to do. There is nothing I can do. So I'm not texting until school starts back up again, even then very scarcely. Only three people: Beebs, Steph, and my mom. That's IT and maybe my friends that go to different schools. But seriously, that's it. So I hope everyone I text has a facebook because that way they won't think I'm mad at them or something stupid like that.

Yeah whatever...

2009-12-19T12:16:00.000-06:00

I hope everyone enjoyed the pictures I put up last night (this morning). I didn't get any sleep last night because I was coughing ALL NIGHT. And now there's mucus buildup in my throat and I just want to reach in there and rip it all out-even if it means my esophagus must go too! And ugh I am very mad at my dad. he thinks respect is a one-way street. Well, guess what, respect is a two way thing! Jesus Christ! "Stop talking back to me" Well then stop talking to me like I'm a freaking slave! UGH! Going to church later on...I haven't been there in a long time and I don't know anyone there...So we'll see how that goes. I guess I'd better go take a shower. And I'm a little mad at my mom right now because she left for the store without telling me where she was going and then my dad was like "Well, Christmas time isn't a time for questions" but it's just the way he said it! UGH!

New Story!!!! IMPORTANT!

2009-12-19T02:20:00.000-06:00

Okay so I'm working on a new story. I went to see the Nutcracker tonight, as mentioned in an earlier post, and I was inspired. So go here: Porcelain Ballerina Chapter One I also was really proud of it, so I tried my hand in photography relating to the story. No ballerinas, sorry, but there is a pretty necklace I wore today that I was going to incorporate in the story, so enjoy(: and yes, you can look them up on google, they are not there. I took them myself. Wish I could prove it over the internet somehow, but unless you know me in real life, that's next to impossible.

Hopefully if you read my story, chapter, you'll get what the necklace is extracted from. Hope you enjoyed looking at my wonderful pictures I took on my half day, bored at home and nap time right after!
Thanks, if you won't be in town to check my blog (those particles that are actually recieving these words since no one ever looks) happy holidays!
Sincerely,

Good Day?! D: Woah!

2009-12-18T22:55:00.000-06:00

Yeah okay okay it's been like two days since I've posted and I can just see your dripping with enthusiasm--it practically emanates from your very presence. Yeah. Sarcasm is my thing. Anyway, I had...a good day today. Wow! Really!? Did I really say that!? Seems like it's been forever since I've been able to say that... It was a half day and me and my friend, Katie, hung out with Mr. Bradley, our geometry teach, all day. My core teachers didn't care where I was at all. Me and Madeleine discussed the E-Bucks Rebellion and petition for second semester and casually brought up the idea to the principal. He didn't say much but I take that as a "I don't care just don't go way overboard." I'm not. Just a few points to make it worth while and a couple hundred signatures will do the job. I read a lot of The Lovely Bones last night which is like, the freakin best book EVER. I went to the Kansas City Premiere Ballet Production of The Nutcracker with my godmother and my mom. It was great. I saw my godmother's daughter, Jenna, in the opening. It was good. I think I had a really good day and I got my music for Honor's Orchestra yesterday morning. And yesterday afternoon I played a few self-taught pieces on my viola for my geometry teach and the librarians. I was an assistant for the library this whole first semester and today was my last day ): But they gave me, Stormy, and Matilda socks for Christmas, which was great(: So, yeah. It was good. I've been a little bit sick though, but I don't care. Tomorrow night I'm going to church at Antioch Community, so it'll be great.
I guess that's what I have to say for now. except taht it's break for two weeks from school! Next week is Christmas! Yes!

Truth Is...

2009-12-16T18:19:00.000-06:00

My teacher's rule for outbreaks of drama is the 36 hour rule. If they keep texting you, they'll figure out within 36 hours of you not responding that A) either you've your number or B) it's a lost cause. Well, I've carried out that rule precisely for the last two weeks. And now look who keeps bringing it up. The person. That's right. The person. They texted me and kept saying aobut how Iw as tlaking about them but I really wasn't. Blahblahblah. Well guess what...I don't care! At all. Not going to care. So reading this post is...pretty pointless? Yeah. So stop reading. Right...now. You're still reading aren't you? Stop reading! Now! Don't bring it up! Don't think about it. Just don't. Avert your eyes from the truth!

Slow Road To Recovery

2009-12-16T16:43:00.000-06:00

It's been hard this last couple of weeks. That's misconception for you. I want to take the time to say... I'm good. I think. For now. I still want to spend more time with my grandparents, but...everything good between me, the aquaintance, and my best friend. Stephi and I passed notes during eighth hour watching Osmosis Jones. Tomorrow's the day before the halfday. Best friend might come over. Friday's a half day. I'm good. I haven't taken a nap today either which is also a plus. I'm getting a headache, but I'm okay. I ate the rest of the fig newtons. (Strawberry!) I do have an essay for SAGE, but it won't take me very long. Hour, tops? Hah, probably not even that long. Next Friday is Christmas. This Friday is the Nutcracker in Liberty. I'm okay, I think.

For now.

Insomniatic...Part Two

2009-12-15T23:39:00.000-06:00

I had to show off my new signature, for one, and for two, it's that time again, folks (whatever folks there are)!The Insomniac Chronicles 2. I know it's not as late as my last, but I actually am fairly tired and I wanted to get this out of the way since my parents are asleep. It's 11:14. It's a school night. It's a Tuesday, soon to be Wednesday.
I'm not at my desk, so you'll have to settle for bed pics instead.
First off, I would like to show off my new phone, which is the Samsung Highlight I mentioned in an earlier episode of this. So here it is (by the way, it's a touchscreen and this is the phone I talked about yesterday when _____ said that I copied her. As my geometry teach would say, "Ugh. Eighth grade girls." I respect that.

As I said earlier today, I'm reading a book called, The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold. It's a movie now but I wanted to read it first.

Right now, I'm drinking Dr. Pepper. But I don't care. Not one bit because I make good grades and if someone wants to oh, let's say for theatrical reference, bitch about it, I'll pull out my reportcard and wave it in their sorry face. (As you can tell, I'm in my normal sarcastic mood)

At night, I usually have bursts of writing that I have to write down. Absolutely, positively have to write down. I used to just stealthly grab random pieces of copy machine paper and scribble the incoherent letters down. My latest work is a piece called "Crystal Stars". I was looking out my window Sunday night and I saw a bright star (but, as I've always known, it's not a star, it's Venus. DUH). I thought it was extremely, utterly, heartbreakingly beautiful and it reminded me of crystal and how it could shatter with just one mistake of the universe. And there I had it. But, of course, I'm not finishing it. It was just a random thing. If you want a finished short story or two (woo!) go here: http://www.inkpop.com/projects/5212/the-gray-forest/. That's a short story I wrote on a snow day last week as I watched the snow gently ascend from the heaven above. http://www.inkpop.com/projects/5327/lie-for-you/ That's a short story I wrote while listening to my favorite band in the whole wide world, Muse. I might make it into a longer story at some point but lazy inkpoppers are making it hard to judge whether it's well-written or not. So, if you're faithfully reading this right now, I suggest you E-mail me and tell me your thoughts and critique.

Sweet dreams munchkins! (look at my new sig! made it myself, along with "Lie For You"'s cover :)

Better

2009-12-15T22:30:00.000-06:00

Today....Was a tad bit of a stressful day, at certain points. Before I continue I would like to take the time to say... Why am I even writing this?! No one is looking at it! I guess it's just something to do. But, anyway, at least today was semi-fractionally better than yesterday. It started out... my throat hurt. My Mom bought me a sunny-D at the gas station that I didn't finish until homeroom. Then second hour *sigh*. Well, my orchestra teacher is a flake. No one in the building likes him. NO ONE. My friend...(well I'm not really sure about that address nowadays) she quit because of him. I only continue because of my viola. I love playing music; it's like...It's honestly like an award board that you need to fill up with experience and years. It's great. Third hour was boring. I think I fell asleep because I woke up and Fatima was urging me to get up before I was late. Not like my geometry teach would care anyway, but still. I was a punctual person and it bugged me if that happened. Well, anywho, I was in a neutral mood in geometry, but it got better. That class always cheers up, but today an aquaintance I knew for a very long time of whom I used to be really close to, decided to get me all ruffled up and stuff so then I ended up being mad and I snapped at Steph who was already having a bad day. I felt bad about it, to say the least. So of course, I couldn't get it out of mind. Honestly, Steph is my only true friend I can definitely count on up here. The following hour, SAGE, was okay. It wasn't the best, but it wasn't the worst. Just neutral. But I had a lot of things on my mind. My throat was sore (still is at 10:15). Iw anted to go home, knowing I couldn't until Friday. So I silently talked to Madeleine (another great friend I can almost always count on-for those of you keeping track, that's two) at lunch but she sometimes turned around and talked to the popular girls. That was fine with me, as long as I wasn't completely abandoned. After fifth hour, I was about to collapse. Mrs. Williamson was in a good, jolly mood with minimal yelling (yay for my ears). I passed notes with another good friend, Maha. Mrs. Williamson was always turned around at her computer, so we had no issues there. But I found out my best friend that's been ignoring me is totally ignoring her along with the aquaintance I mentioned earlier. So they're like bff's and nobody else. Maha and I were discussing how it was only going to get worse and how we didn't care. Then, as an extra bonus, Mrs. Williamson passed out candy canes at the end of that hour. Weird, I had thought. But oh well. Good, nonetheless. Seventh hour English was when I had my perspective-changing ephiphany. Other than the three good friends I had, I needed new ones. Seriously. Time for change. So I started talking to Jamie George a lot more. I felt bad because my best friend who decided I was a pebble on her road, had called her a raccoon because she wears a lot of eyeliner. I knew it wasn't right but when you're with the girl, you have ot agree or the silent treatment sentence is in effect. The silence treatment was like a death sentence to me. So I always apologized, even if I did nothing wrong, to avoid it at all costs. I'm not going to be like that anymore. No more push-over Hannah. No freaking way. I've learned my lesson. So, eighth hour which was my second favorite class (under geometry), was easy. Test day. Steph explained why she had given me a small silent treatment today in geometry and how I made it worse because she had had the previous hour that morning with _____ (the girl who talks about me) and how Steph disliked her a lot. I couldn't agree more, Stephi, seriously. I handed in my test right after Steph and we both read and laughed at Lucian, the total weirdo but completely hilarious genius that's not even five feet tall. My day had much improved by then and I was ready to live my short life and forget (like Maha had mentioned earlier, I much respected her for that). The Lovely Bones is a great book. Then after school, I practiced my viola for more than hour, as I always do out of self-motivation, read, slept, and went to my godmother's twins' band concert at Northgate. I saw my old friend from Lakewood, Alex Spoon, whom I've known since kindergarten but haven't talked to since fifth grade. I talked to his mom but I was a little late in finding him. Then I went home and read, took my shower, read some more, and here I am.

There I was,
Sleep tight, munchkins of Earth,

People=hated

2009-12-14T20:22:00.001-06:00

Well sorry guys that I haven't updated this in awhile. Oh, my bad. There is no one following this. I mean, who would want to follow my stupid story anyway? That's right. No one. So today was the worst day (kinda) ever. This girl (I won't mention names, just in case someone I know does read this) Well Anyway, this girl stopped bein my friend because she thinks I don't know her and that I was "weird and annoying". I'd like to see her petition that and see how many agree with her [none]. Today I was about to get dressed out for gym and I saw that she had gotten the same new phone as me. Of course, I didn't care because she had tried to add me the night before on facebook and I ignored and bloced her because she had already done that once and I asked why and she said it was because she was friends with people on facebook that she didn't like in real life. So I was like "Whatever, screw you. Blocked." So anyway, I called Steph over and was like "Guess who has the same phone as me"

"_____"

"Yup."

"You want to know what she said this morning in choir?" By this point I was pretty interested because it was the "person" that had said to not talk about each other ever again. So I nodded. "Well, she was like 'Hannah always has to have whatever her friends have. She totally copied off of me [which is a total lie because I haven't even talked to her in three weeks]. She got her laptop because Sara had one [I got my laptop as a Christmas present from my parents and I didn't even ask for it]. And she got her DS because Fantasia had one [Well guess what, blondie? I don't even play it anymore and I had my DS long before I knew Fantasia]."
I slammed my locker and quickly made my way to the nurse's office before I did anything rash. I wasn't going anywhere else; I hate talking to people other than my geometry teacher or Stephi. Those are the only two people I feel like maybe I can count on, people I know will try and do their best to help me. I laid down in the nurse's office for about ten minutes and went back to gym (which I had with the person) but luckily people had split between the two gyms and she was in the other one. I had to go somewhere because I honestly was about to scream at her or throw things or something.

So that was my morning. Not to mention when I tried to talk to one of my best friends about it after school, she didn't say anything. She didn't care. She hasn't even noticed me for the past three weeks. She never hangs out with me becaus she's "studying" which she never does. SO I've decided I'm going to my grandparents' house every weekend from now on. I'll try to mobile blog.

But, let me ask you, what the heaven have I done to deserve this?

Best regards to everyone else and hopefully a Merry Christmas,

OMG

2009-12-12T19:42:00.000-06:00

Welll everyone I went shopping today and it was amazing! I got like 500 dollars worth of stuff. Clothes, jewellery, and A NEW PHONE! YES!!!! Lol. Well I'm at Stephi's so ttyl!

2009-12-12T17:25:00.001-06:00

Hanging with Stephi(: Got the tmobile highlight!!!!(:

2009-12-11T23:31:00.000-06:00

Well I broke a string on my new viola (thank you Mom) but luckily I have extras. Anyway, so I guess I'm blogging about my old viola right now, seeing as though I won't be able to play the new one until tomorrow. Anyway, I recorded myself playing The Harry Potter Theme (Hedwig's Theme, written by John Williams) and later I'll probably post a recording of Over the Rainbow from the Wizard of Oz (written by Harold Arlen) and a recording of The Indiana Jones Theme (Raider's March, written by John Williams). But I warn you it is pretty...um...not so pretty I guess. In my defense my microphone isn't all that good (lol, lies). Uh okay so I can't quite figure out how to do this? The music will be up later then I guess. For now, just stick around and wait for my confirmation post(:
Tata for now, followers!

2009-12-11T21:21:00.000-06:00

Well everyone. Like I said before, I am in a more jollier mood thanks to my new viola which I have yet to name. I was thinking of looking up some Italian words since my new viola is Italian. Anyway, I wrote this short story and I really liked it so I posted it on inkpop. Well, I made a cover, too. So here it is:

Does it look good? Great. Well I think I'm going to go watch a movie. So I'll catch up with all you bloggers later! Toodles!

OMG!

2009-12-11T18:53:00.002-06:00

I am in the best mood ever now! I'm home alone--and I'm not exactly happy about that. But I got a new viola! It's Italian and it's imported and it's SO pretty! It also came with a real wooden bow and a tuner/metronome and a really pretty case!!!!!! Pictures later!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was supposed to be a Christmas present but I was really upset earlier so my mom just gave it to me. I'm ordering buffalo wings and pizza for dinner and I'm probably going to watch a movie or something.

I guess I will live tonight,

Wow. Really freaking great weekend...

2009-12-11T17:29:00.003-06:00

Heya everyone. I've actually been home for awhile, I've just been writing and talking on webcam with my friend. Anyway, I am not in a very good mood right now. Well, tonight I was going to go over to my godmother, Zalene's, house. But then... Then Stephi asked if I could go to her house and stay an extra night before her birthday party tomorrow, but she still had to ask her mom. I called my mom and hse said I couldn't go to both (Jesus freaking! UGH!). So I was pretty mad. But then I found out that tomorrow is my dad's Christmas party but it's also Stephi's birthday so I had to go to my dad's Christmas party. So then I told Stephi and guess what she said? Her mom said no. Wonderful, right? So then I decided to go to Zalene's but then...of course, just my luck..she said that she was going to be out with some friends. So then my mom said I could stay home but honestly, with my neighborhood, do I really want to stay home alone on a Friday until one in the morning? No. No I do not. So then I might go to Sara's house and hang out with Katie and her...but idk...because I think they had plans and honestly I don't really know if they want to hang out with me because of SMK stuff. So I might just be robbed or killed tonight. Wonderful, great freaking weekend!!!!!

I sincerely hope this is not my last post,

2009-12-11T11:46:00.001-06:00

Eating at CiCi's! Yum!

2009-12-11T10:31:00.000-06:00

Hey! Its Hannah! Yesh I'm on the bus going to Crestview from my old school, Lakewood. Ahhh the elementary grades...Well guess I'd better go! Toodles yall!

2009-12-11T00:02:00.003-06:00

The KISS concert was amazing. Like seriously. It's 12:03 and my parents are letting me stay up--Hah! Have a tour tomorrow. I think my plan is to sleep between schools. Works, right!? Well either way the concert was freakin' amazing. It was loud but dangit it was worth it! I got some great shots of everything. We were like close(: I'll post laterrr. For right now, shocker, I'm actually tired. And the KISS shirt I'm wearing was...mmm..$40!! So I think I'm going to go to bed now. No Insomniac tonight... Seee yaall in Detroit! ROCK CITY!(:
Nighhhhtt,

2009-12-10T19:53:00.001-06:00

At the Kiss concert!!! Its loud! But its AMAZING!!

2009-12-10T15:18:00.000-06:00

Heya eeeerrrryyyybody!(: Well today is the start of a FREAKIN GREAT WEEKEND! It may not be Friday, but for me it is! Goin' to the KISS concert! They had it on the news this morning. "Gene Simmons is in town". Hah! Yeah I watch his show, Gene Simmons Faimly Jewels, on A&E. LOVE IT! Anyway, listening to Muse... Um OH EM GEE! Stephi's birthday party is tomorrow night(: Well, kinda. We'll se what her mommy says about me staying an extra night(: It's actulaly Saturday, but whatevvaa. Anyways, tomorrow is my orchestra/band tour. we're going to Lakewood Elementary (my home school, yo!;), Crestview Elementary, and...Chouteau I think. And then CICI's PIZZA! Yes(: My mom gave me 60$ just to buy a Tee tonight... I didn't want to take it, to be honest, but if you give a teenager money...Well... Okay well my Godmothers gonna be here sometime around five and I have stuff to do, so I'll blog later(: Oh and okay. Well, in seminar with Mrs. Williamson, we're reading this boring book, Across Five Aprils by Irene Hunt and I HATE IT! With a passion that burns greater than a thousand suns! Lol! So anyway, I was thinking, well maybe I should check my texts because I NEVER text during class--I'm always afraid of being caught. So I was going through the Facebookie updates when I looked up and I still had one hand on the table holding my book, but she was staring RIGHT AT ME!!! I was scared to death but she jsut turned away. And I calle dmy godmother in homeroom--lol! Library, though. I'm an assistant till the end of this semester which is next week *tear*. Anyway, catch ya'll's latersss! Bya!!!!!
Love,
(:

Insomniatic...Part One

2009-12-10T00:31:00.001-06:00

Uh, so, yes, it is 12:27am and yes, it is a school night. In my defense, I had a snow day today...Well, yesterday, I guess. Either way! My friend and I stopped webcamming about...an hour ago. I've just been pointlessly searching the internet since then. Which has so graciously prompted me to post this. As I have been flipping the pages of Romeo and Juliet every so often. And trying to count the billions of jewels that cover my phone case...

My eyes burn a tad, but how can I sleep knowing this has been (and will continue to be) a very eventful week!? First of all, I bought Muse's new album Sunday. Monday was a bad day, but I always get the best advice from my geometry teacher (he has a blogspot for work and I think it's OOBER BORING, just so you know). I also got my teeth capped...I had to be numb for FOUR hours because I kept feeling what they were doing so they had to inject me with a needle TWICE! Tuesday...Well, there was the excitement of snow. And the fact that I had an awesome renditioning of a snowy forest scene which I took the time to write down in a short story, right here:http://www.inkpop.com/projects/5212/the-gray-forest/ for your enjoyment. And there's today. I love snowdays, don't get me wrong, but there was nothing to do except sleep till ten, pointlessly text my best friend, Stephi, and lay around eating nothing but soup because my dentist decided to project a new phobia on my young mind the previous day. Tomorrow, Thursday, I'm going to take an easy science test (if I have school) and go to a KISS concert at the Sprint Center with my godmother. Friday...Friday I'm staying with my godmother while my parents go to a Christmas party. And I hope I have school because then I get to be gone all day on an orchestra tour(: Hah! Saturday... Going shopping at Zona Rosa(:

Um. Well I have an overdue library book (that was due November 5th). Yeah it's sitting on my desk right now (as other things I'm currently talking about, heh). I'm still waiting for my other phone case to get here. I have the sucky phone, T-Mobile Gravity. One. Not Gravity Two, one. So I'm asking for a touch screen for Christmas.

Hmm... Well. I'm reading this awesome new series right now called The Immortals Series by Alyson Noel. I'm also reading Bluebloods by Melissa De La Cruz.

I went to Gordman's Saturday night with Madeleine (pretty much my equal in like everyway) and got this beautiful purple sparkly dress for 24.00, but it was on sale. It would've been 60.00. Man, am I good. But I have no idea where to wear it! Ironic. I also bought a new purse and a matching wallet with the rest of my God forsaken money. And right now, I've typed all of this, it's 12:42. Weird? Yeah. Actually I'm not a fast thinker. That's pretty much it for this episode of "Insomniac Chronicles Part One". See ya'll in the mornin'!

Finished everything at...1:11am. Wow that was almost an hour spent on one post!

2009-12-09T23:32:00.001-06:00

Testing out the new mobile blog tthing(:

2009-12-09T17:08:00.000-06:00

Weellll. I hate dentists. They stick needles in your mouth and expect you to eat after four hours of numbness. Which is not possible. Anyway, main subject, check out my short story: Lie For You. It was inspired by my favorite band EVER, Muse. I got their new album and I was listening to...Uprising? Or maybe it was Resistance? Well, they're all amazing so it doesn't matter. Anyway, I just had this picture of a fearful couple going to the top fo a building in an elevator and here it is! Might post as a book later. Not really sure. I guess we'll see how much people like it(:
Here's the link:
http://www.inkpop.com/projects/5327/lie-for-you/

Thanksss for reading!
Love,

Hey! It's Hannah!

2009-12-09T15:47:00.000-06:00

Well, I know what everyone's thinking or saying, "It says Annah Lorraine. Not Hannah Lorraine." My real name is Hannah Lorraine but my friend came up with the nickname Annah and I loved it so I use it all the time now. I love to write. I have a ton of other interests too, but I love writing. So I created this post to show my writing to the world. The funny thing is I don't want to be an author-it just kind of happened. I haven't published anything yet, but I have a Writer's Cafe account: http://www.writerscafe.org/writers/AnnahLorraine/ and an Inkpop: http://www.inkpop.com/profile/7b6b2d15-c1c4-469c-88ac-bbe5156d9d12/maarsipan/ So I hope everyone checks it out(: I like to write novels, or so I think, but I never finish them. I started one last year and it got to 167 pages before I deleted it all. It just got way out of my hands. I can't count the number of failed stories I've tried to write on my fingers-or toes. But I hope that maybe I can get somewhere sometime with those two accounts and this one.
Thanks for reading!
-Annah L.